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Anger

Sometimes I think anger is my friend, he keeps me company and reminds me that I am alive…and other times he is just comes out of nowhere and takes over…keeping my friend at bay is not easy for me to do. This might come as a shock to a lot of people, yes I get mad, extremely irate to say the least…how do I keep it in check? I have no idea…I wish I knew, there is a thorn that has been in my side for years now and a lot of people know exactly what I am talking about…wise men say to deal with your emotions and control them; I wish it was that easy for me. I always remember the sort of unpopular Metallica song that came out a few years back, St. Anger, the lines– I feel my world shake
I can’t look away
Hard to see clear
Is it me
Or is it fear?

I’m madly in anger with you

I want my anger to be healthy
I want my anger just for me
I need my anger not to control
I want my anger to be me

I need set my anger free
I need to set my anger free
Set it free!

Yeah, well, healthy, unhealthy, setting it free is something I really need to work on or else things get blacker as the years go on…one final thought for today readers…

Remember, you can’t eliminate anger, and it wouldn’t be a good idea if you could. In spite of all your efforts, things will happen that will cause you anger; and sometimes it will be justifiable anger. Life will be filled with frustration, pain, loss, and the unpredictable actions of others. You can’t change that; but you can change the way you let such events affect you. Controlling your angry responses can keep them from making you even more unhappy in the long run.

May Day

Been quite a while since the last post here on this blog. In a way I have lost a lot of ambition to post anything new since life is going like it always does, one day at a time, just how I like it.
I have occasionally pondered what I would write here and not once did a moment of clarity arrive or anything…but today I came across a site and found this posted on a blog I read sometimes and had to share it…I thought it was very original and well, funny…here it is….

From the blog of Akasha (World of Warcraft player):
“It’s like the joke where if you are dating someone and you want them to fall in love with you, every night when they go to bed stick a nicotine patch on their arm and remove it each morning before they wake up. That way, if they ever break up with you they will get this weird craving, think it’s love and come running back.”

Link Here

Now that is something I have never thought of before and it just might work…if you have someone who you think would try to leave you for some reason or another, who knows?

Aggravation is probably what I have had with the pains and aches I have with this body of mine. Of course the docs on the base here are pretty much clueless, I have my second appointment this week to have my shoulder checked out, I hate being broken…it is not my style, I have always considered myself a superman if you will. Never having a broken bone or anything major like that, and now I have a torn muscle in my leg and the old snowboarding injury in my shoulder is giving me hell. Well, hopefully I will be back to 100% soon enough.

The remodeling of the abode is going well. The Master bedroom and bathroom are pretty much complete, all that is left is to fix a minor leak in the drain of the tub and some outlets, trim and stuff…turned out nice.

Our biggest issue now with the house is the deck, a support board fell off of it a few weeks ago one day when we were standing on it, scared the shit out of me…so that needs fixed. There are quite a few piles of old wood and crap piled up that need to go as well…and of course the basement has yet to be touched…

The new guild I started in WoW is going good I think. Everlasting Guild We have around a total of 30 players who play on a usual basis and about 5 or 8 that are my second in charge. We are still a young guild and only have 3 level 60 players in total, end game raids and stuff like that aren’t a major priority and the first meeting I tried to have didn’t get any participation. It will take time, but we have a bank I use to sell and buy items, works out well enough to keep a profit going. Made it a point to knock out as many quests as possible this weekend with Malun and hit level 51. Maxed out my tailoring skill to 300, I need to make another run into Uldaman to see my enchanting trainer to get that up some more as well…it all takes money and items.

Work is going good, taken over the Licensing office here and been getting up to speed on everything. Even with my profile for limiting what I can physically do, I still go to the PT sessions we have every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, well mainly because my boss asked me to go, but also because I do want to get better eventually and I think some slow paced exercising will help out. The big deal coming up this month is what they call the Joint Services Open House, it is basically an Air Show and everyone has to work over the weekend, big deal, I worked almost 7 months straight my last deployment…heh We shall see how that all goes down.

My kids are getting so big..Cody turns 14! OMG! I am getting old! Ashton is going to be 11! Jeez, where does the time go? Who knows….

Until next time, keep your feet on the ground and keep reaching for the stars! ;)

Tolerance

There is so much bullshit in this world that I truly do not care about; as sad as that sounds, believe me, I am happy to share it with you here.  The fact that I do not give a shit about stuff in the world can be attributed to what some would call an attitude problem perhaps, but I call it an awakening.  All of the petty things on the news are depressing to the point of nausea and I just have to shut it out.  Like shit stains on the bottom of my boots, I have to wipe it off and carry on.
I think the commercialization of the holidays is great if you are making money, but from a religious point of view is could be considered blasphemous.  On another note, sometimes I my frustrations are immeasurable and I must find a way to vent the rage.  Compared to a Tupperware container full of Hormels chili inside a microwave that will not shut off…eventually, something has got to give.  Usually, it is a series of perpetual implosions inside of my mind that begin very large but end with a slight fizzle and fade away.  Without the comfort of drinks to extinguish the fire, things are not as easily wiped off my boots, so I continue the march through the shit creek until my boat to freedom arrives..wish me luck

Spam, wretched spam…

W T F ?!?! is up with the spam these days? You know, I want to be the most fantastic, longest lasting man I can be for my wife…but come on..

Email-

Hi Sean,
Satisfy her over and over again.
All night.
Like no one else.
Be the best she’s ever had – for the low low price of 99 cents.
Enter here.

So, why wouldn’t I click it and get the love pills for 99 cents?

They are getting better at marketing too, cause I got another one asking me if I want more hair, well of course, but on top of my head…

And there was another one reminding me of my military benefits, like for some odd reason I have forgotten what I am entitled to or something?

Well, as for me, since there is a war on everything already anyway, I say we continue the good fight and wage war on spam, stick it to the man and their evil marketing schemes! Oh, by the way, the spam messages I discussed here were blocked automatically by gmail, I am pretty amazed at how well gmail can decipher the bad shit from the good, on that note, I still have 100 gmail invitations if anyone is interested send me an email, contact information is at the bottom of this blog…Peace

Morning Pees

One of the few things in life I truly despise is pain. And one of the most gut wrenching, annoying pains I have everyday is the morning wake up pee pains. My wife knows it all too well, sometimes I just wish I had a pair of depends on so I could release the piss out of my body and be at peace. But, that wouldn’t be “normal” I guess, and I really don’t feel like putting on a diaper before I go to bed, I have a feeling I might be doing that when I get older and lose control of my functions down there anyway, why rush it?
I try to take every step possible to eliminate the pee pain before I go to sleep. I stop drinking any liquids at least two hours prior and the last thing I do before I lay down is go pee. I know the body isn’t going to stop making the yellow stuff just because I decide I need to sleep.
Maybe they will make a pill that will eliminate the morning pee pain. That would be a breakthrough. Until then I have to force myself to get up and get dressed to walk outside to the outhouses before I piss all over myself…
Anyone else have problems with this? It has to be one of the most irritating things in this world…

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