Sean’s Flow
I know a lot of people have heard that rumor about if you drink mountain dew and you are a guy it will shrink your balls or lower your sperm count or make your snake a worm….well, I never believed all that crap and now I can share the link to prove it to you all…
I love snopes…and I enjoy sharing the knowledge with you all…you can thank me later.
Well, things are going better here in my world. Sort of like as if a veil has been lifted from my eyes and I can see things a bit clearer these days. As far as gaming goes, I am still lost in the grind, I finally saved up enough for 225 level riding skill and I decided to get the black war wolf from the battlegrounds. I love that mount, he is just bad looking.
I have been experimenting with a few new toons also, I decided to try out playing a mage, I am at level 15 and I am really struggling with getting used to the freeze, run, freeze type of playstyle, also, I realize I miss having the ability to heal. I have reached level 66 with my shaman and the hybrid build I am working with is really great for explosive attacks and strong healing when needed.
I also decided to create a troll hunter, I really have to say playing a hunter is so much fun, mostly because of the speed at which I can take out mobs, but also because I enjoy finding new pets to tame and having them there fighting by my side.
A funny thing happened to me today while I was running into silvermoon city on my unguilded hunter and I got a whisper from a random person offering me the guildmaster of a guild I have never heard of, Zombie Squad. I asked him why of course and he said he is quitting the game, then I asked him why he didn’t offer it to a member and he said they were all offline, then I asked how many there were in the guild, he said 37, so I thought, well why not? If anything it would save me 10 gold and the hassle of getting people to sign the charter…of course having a guild bank to use for my alts is good also. So I took it and he left and there is not a single member besides me in it…
I logged off and came back a bit later and advertised to give the leadership to someone else in the trade channel, immediately I got 2 whispers, I invited the first person and gave her/him the lead and decided to stay after they said they used to be in the guild and the leader was rude…I had who I think is a her, haven’t asked yet, to invite my other unguilded toons, all but my shaman, and I sent her the 100 gold to get the guild bank started at least. I think my hopes are to at the minimum invite a few friends and some others to have some people there to talk to and get help with quests and dungeons, etc…
Overall things are going well, I am jealous of my wifes’ new monitor I bought her a 19″ widescreen dell and it is sweet…I think I have to get one for myself now. But, actually a new machine is more important, but before that can happen the priorities are new tires and all that jazz for the vehicles…
I login to my alliance toons to play the auction house and transmute, not sure if or when I will come back to the alliance side, but for now it is FOR THE HORDE!
Please excuse the lack of posts as I deal with this mess that is my life…thank you for your patience and understanding….management.
Real Life® can be tough. Most people who have been around a while know this all too well. If you don’t care to read about the drama that is my life then go ahead and stop reading please…but I feel I need to get share some things here. Don’t worry, this isn’t anywhere near being Jerry material or anything like that and it will probably be pretty boring, but if you must, please continue.
Well, like a lot of people gaming has been something that I enjoy to do to pass the time. You can call it a hobby, but sometimes, especially in the World of Warcraft it can become more of an obsession I guess. I would like to think I am a person who can maintain the balance in my life, but sometimes not so much.
A little history here about me, I got married to my first wife when I was young, we were dating and she was still in high school, I was going to school for a 2 year degree in marketing, no idea there, and working part-time at a department store in Indiana. She got pregnant with my son and of course it was unplanned. So, I asked her to marry me and we wed and moved into a trailer cause it was pretty much all we could afford at the time, she got a job at the gas station and I ended up dropping out of school and working full-time at Wal-mart (the devil).
Fast forward about 2 years and I decided I needed to do something else with my life, so I went and seen the Air Force recruiter and the local carpenters union and I guess the Air Force wanted me more so I joined up.
Fast forward another year and my daughter is born while we are at Ellsworth AFB, South Dakota. The next year I go to Saudi Arabia for a 90 day deployment only to realize the last month I am there that she has been working at a bar and seeing guys…
I come home and she has moved in with her now husband in an apartment in town and about 10 months later the divorce is final. He is active duty also, they got orders and moved to New Jersey taking the kids. It was rough, but I managed. I was single for a while and I put in for some orders to get out of there, too many memories and all that. The divorce was one of those cheap no contest divorces and so being naive I didn’t even think about the visitation part of all it (mistake).
Well fast forward to 2003, I put in to get orders out to the east coast so I could see my kids on a more regular schedule and so we moved to Andrews AFB, MD. My kids are only 100 miles away up state. After many attempts at setting up at least a monthly visit for the kids to come stay for the weekend, I get fed up after a summer comes and I don’t get to see them for the break at all…so find a lawyer, pay out the fucking ass to setup what should have been done 10 damn years ago…at the same time the ex decided to go ahead and raise the child support, which is her right, so that doubles every month, then there is all the drama that she brings and it is like pulling teeth just to have her agree that the kids can come one weekend a month to visit. About 6 months go by and now they move back to Indiana…so here I am again…and I am past the point of giving a shit really. I have been depressed and angry and nothing can change it.
Everyone has their opinions and thoughts, but nothing can change how I feel about this whole mess. On top of that I don’t know how long my marriage is going to last, things are just slowly falling apart…
So, where is the balance in all of this?
I find myself living in the World of Warcaft as a way to escape all of this shit, is it healthy? probably not, but it’s the only thing that seems to keep me sane. I feel so terrible that I have failed not only my children but my wife and myself…
I have an appointment at the end of the month to talk to the doc, we shall see how that goes…until then
Dirty little secret,
Dirty little lies.
Say your prayers and comb your hair,
Save your soul tonight.
Drift among the faithful,
Bury your desires.
Aberrations fill your head,
You need a place to hide
And I am…
Do you remember me?
And the kid I used to be?
Do you remember me?
When your world’s come crashing down
I want to relive.
(Your god ain’t looking down on me!)
I’m not Jesus,
Jesus wasn’t THERE!
You confess it all away,
But it’s only shit to me
(Your god ain’t looking down on me!)
I’m not Jesus,
I will not forgive!
No I won’t!
No I won’t.
I thought you were a good man,
I thought you talked to god.
You hippocratic, messianic, and child abusing-turned-satanic.
Do you remember me?
Do you remember me?
And the kid I used to be?
Do you remember?
Do you remember?
When your own world comes undone,
Let me be the one to say:
(Your god ain’t looking down on me!)
“I’m not Jesus,
You can’t run away!”
And the innocence you spoiled
Found a way to live.
(Your god ain’t looking down on me!)
I’m not Jesus
I will not forgive!
I won’t forgive.
I won’t do whatever you want to.
I won’t forgive.
I won’t do whatever you want to.
Do you remember me?
And the kid I used to be?
Not the same as I used to be!
GOD, do you remember me?
NAME!
When your world’s come crashing down,
I want to relive
(Your god ain’t looking down on me!)
I’m not Jesus,
Jesus wasn’t fair!
You confess it all away,
But it’s only shit to me!
(Your god ain’t looking down on me!)
I’m not Jesus,
I will not,
I’m not Jesus,
I will not forgive!
Oh, I will not forgive, yeahyeah!
No, I will not forgive!
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